I guess you could say the truth abut forever is that it doesn't exist. No matter how many promises people make you, they're going to end up disappointing you at some point. Even if they say they love you, and that they couldn't imagine life without you, don't believe them. Quite possibly they could replace you in five seconds whenever someone "better" comes along.
If you let people in they will try to take everything they possibly can from you and then walk away without even glancing back. That's why no matter what, after today if this "conversation" goes exactly how I think it will, I'm not letting anybody in, ever again.
My attitude towards life at the moment could be summed up like this: "Screw them before they can screw you." I don't mean this in the literal terms. I'm saying beat them to the punch, come out with a little dignity.
I know that you are going to hurt me badly today and a few days ago it probably would have been enough to kill me. (or at least make me cry.) But I've had some time to think this over and if you hurt me today I'm just going to walk away like you never even mattered. Maybe that will hurt you enough to make you realize what you've done.
I'm making it my mission to become skinnier and prettier because quite frankly, I want to knock your socks off. I know it seems childish, but I want you to come back and beg for forgivness and I want to be able to say "no" with a laugh and a head toss and then walk away.
Go ahead, sweetheart do your worst.
"And that was the day that I promised. I'd never sing of love if it does not exist." -Only Exception Paramore
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