I hated all the lies so why do I still miss this so much? It was two weeks, could it really have changed me that much?
The answer here would be yes, it really could have changed me that much. I was treated so much better with him then anyone I have ever been with, and thats probably why I fell so hard and so fast. Being with him was like everything I've ever wanted coming true. It's like someone gave me the only present I've been waiting for my entire life and waited for me to open it and get all excited and then took it away saying "Sorry, just kidding that was meant for someone else."
Talk about pulling the rug out from under my feet. Its just ridiculous, I can't I even stand looking at him, but here I am missing him so much it physically hurts me. Shouldn't I just be able to move on? Why do I have to care so much? Why do I have to feel like crying everytime I see an update from him on Facebook?
I'm so sick of this. I'm sick of being kept awake at night wondering what went wrong. I don't want to forgive him. I don't think I can forgive him.
"Just going to stand there and watch me burn, that's alright because I like the way it hurts. Just going to stand there and hear me cry, that's alright because I love the way you lie, love the way you lie"
-"Love the way you lie" Eminem ft Rihana
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